Put the books down, forget the classroom, turn away from the mirror and go live

Transcript for those that prefer the written word:

Hello listener, I wanted to create a little voice memo, a little voice message for those that are listening.

you're probably here because you found one of my videos on YouTube and if you didn't know, before I started talking about the things that I do on my channel, I was actually a full-time travel vlogger for three years.

But towards the end of that career or journey, I was already starting to pivot towards more content to do with spirituality, personal growth, self-improvement, things like that. Because there's always been this discomfort that I've experienced in my life and there's also been moments of relief when after hundreds and hundreds of books, thousands of hours listening to podcasts, watching YouTube videos just like you might be doing or have done, moments where I did feel relief, I felt so good, and I was so excited to maybe finally, at last - step into a new layer or a new version of of myself. And the more information I collected, the more I felt this desire to share with others, because I know how painful it can be when you're in that kind of liminal in between space between where you are now, where you used to be, who you used to be, and where you're headed.

And there's this kind of, waiting room or waiting hallway where you're not in the previous door anymore, but you're also not yet opening the next door. So you're in this long stretch of hallway and sometimes it's a really, really uncomfortable place to be. With things like uncertainty, in life, external circumstances, I find that that's also a place where there's a lot of discomfort, but there's also, I think, inner uncertainties when you do do the work or you put in the effort to meet the next verse version of yourself and the discomfort lies in the fact that no matter how hard you try, you find yourself feeling like you're still a previous or previous versions of yourself.

All that is to say, I've spent, I think more than half of my life, dedicated to understanding and growing beyond this “pain”, which is really just all part of being human. But lately, I've been pondering on what other value I can offer in terms of content, in terms of the videos that I share on YouTube. And I find myself feeling unmotivated or dispassionate, not because I don't want to help, but because I have so many different interests. And not only that, I find that I love sharing right after I absorb or I've seen something change. So if I learned something for that week that gave me such a grand “aha moment”, I wanted to make that into a video. It's like transmitting a message while it's hot.